Over the last few weeks so many negative issues have been hitting me that it has certainly impacted my ability to focus on just one thing at a time, work my way through it, celebrate getting through it, then move on to the next...

I know it's been pretty clear in my recent writings that I need to find a way to get my focus back. My life has not slowed down in any way but things are emotionally starting to level off and I feel like the fog I have been trapped in is starting to lift.

Yesterday I took my negative energy and started pouring it into something positive in the planning of our vow renewal. It actually helped me get some desire to focus and take back a little control. I know I have things I have to work on from my past. I know I need to address the lingering issues I have with my family sooner rather than later and hopefully find a way to do that in a manner that is positive and helps all of us to come to a new understanding. After all, I know my family would never do anything to intentionally hurt me. I think some of this comes from me setting some expectations of how they should react and not sharing those expectations. In other words, I set them up to fail me because I just wasn't sharing my feelings when I was experiencing them.

I intend to focus my energy working on that aspect of my life first and see how I feel. My husband is already dedicated to helping support me and well to be honest he's still a work in progress but at least he is trying and I have to be happy about that!

Well, date night is being moved up a few days this week so we can sit face to face and work on plans for our renewal service. The hubby is home and ready to head out.

Lesson learned: Today I learned I need to take on my issues one at a time. It is a process and in the end, I know if I stay focused, I will work my way through them all.

Wishing you Happiness and Light!

Until Next Time,

Laura D.