I feel trapped in this house and highly unmotivated to reflect because of the ongoing injury to my foot. My slow progress is frustrating on the best of days. I did get some good news from Physical Therapy yesterday though and found I can use one of my exercise machines I have here at home to rehab my foot. I am hoping it helps in the near future but I am running low on patience. I know I need to stay positive so perhaps I should just try to focus my energy on setting goals for my "in house" rehab. As I laid down on the machine today to work on my foot exercises today I couldn't help but think that this was going to be a long journey. Meanwhile, day by day I feel my lack of exercise is causing me to gain even more weight and I just want to look great during our vow renewal. The clock is ticking and I still can't stand on my foot for much more than a few minutes. The bone scan revealed I had a bone in my foot that is bruised. It's supposed to be good news that there is no fracture but it's hard to celebrate that when they tell you the recovery time is the same.

Perhaps it's just been a challenging week and an even more challenging day. I let my husband's dog outside to take care of his business and he didn't want to come back in so I left the door open (like we normally do) thinking he would wonder back in when he was ready, only to realize some time later that he never came back in and was nowhere to be seen. In a panic I called him, drove all around the streets in the neighborhood and called my husband to tell him his dog was missing and it was my fault for loosing track of time and not realizing he never came back in. I had a desperate 20 minutes of panic before returning home to find him at the lake in the back yard. I don't know where he went but was grateful he found his way back. Even with all of that, it certainly jump started my anxiety and any ability to focus went right out the window.

I do have a meeting with the girls from our Family Readiness Group tonight and the potential to feel good about chatting with the team. I hope this will help me to feel good about this day overall. I mean the dog came back and that was a good thing so perhaps things are turning around. However, I just want to get out and exercise and be like the normal person living their lives again really soon. I just need to find a way.

Lesson for today: I learned I need to find a way to get through my physical issues without letting them impact my ability to learn more about myself and reflect back on challenges from my past so I can truly move on and grow from the experience.

Wishing you Happiness and Light!

Until next time,

Laura D.